𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙚

• wolfstar, logic, word play, crimson raindrops, lighting, the sound of thunder all night long and early morning.

• sarcastic humour, biting remarks, cheesy pick up lines, puns&jokes, constant chattering, romanticising everything.

• listening to my playlist of the week, fake scenarios, drinking cold coffee.

• my favourite bollywood songs and movies, my phone&kindle, king julian, pure joy at seeing coco.

• clouds, random facts, formal english, history, literature, law.

• warm hugs, teasing conversations, laughter.

• god, the universe, manifestation, astrology, soul path&plan, signs, answers, joy.

• poetry that I feel in the depth of my heart, losing myself in pillowthoughts

• singing out loud, pop songs, rock songs, hindi songs, edited songs, achilles come down, humming the twelve dancing princesses song

• overthinking, overanalysing, constant state of anxiety, depressive episodes, body dysmorphia, dark thoughts, fake smiles, fake confidence, fake narcissism, constant self-reminders.

• grief for him, anger at him, love for him, carrying him in my heart, living for both of us, missing ksg.

• oceans, waves, beaches, cliff jumps, blue water, swimming pools, deep water, diving, wet hair.

• chinese&italian food, mint icecream, chocolate, breads.

• theatres, cinemas, shopping streets, museums, art galleries, dancing in the rain, train&metro rides concerts, running on the streets, road trips.

• travelling, airports, hum of airplanes, passport, bags, family&friends, warm clothes, airport boys.

• percy jackson, magnus chase, alex fierro, draco malfoy, sirius black, remus lupin, pansy parkinson, theodore nott, julian blackthorn, raquelle, ginny, regulus black, loki, dreo, starchaser, moonstar

• movies, tv shows, twitter, pinterest, aesthetics, ffn, ao3, wattpad, tumblr.

• manacled, isolation, time’s up, children of the dark, the bracelet, the auction, only a pretense, entwined in time, once upon a thyme, impersonate, breath mints & battle scars, phoenix rising, all the young dudes, momentum, an infinite ocean and so many more.

• libraries, bookstores, book spines&smells, quotes, fictional characters, writing, literature, dark&grey&light academia, short stories, fantasy, imagines, words.

• physical fights, mental manipulation, arguments, attitude, flow of blood.

• badly edited facebook memes, reels&tiktoks

• inked skin, piercings, repeated hair dyings

all of these define me. i am always changing, always evolving. i become better, I become worse. i always become.